thanksgiving
in lieu of thanksgiving, i figure i should post. i was trying to think of things that i am thankful for and for some reason, i'm not in a very "thanksgiving" mood. it's not that there is NOTHING to be thankful for, but i'm just not feeling thankful. like i can write a whole list of things i'm thankful for because it truly is something to be thankful for, but for some reason, i feel like it'd be better if i didn't say anything at all because it just sounds so fake at the moment. for me, i feel like it'd be like answering the question, "How are you?" and saying, "I'm fine." Like people just say that all the time and really, it's an ambiguous answer. If someone would come up to me and ask me what i'm thankful for, i'd prolly say, "That I'm alive," but then just say it because someone asked me. i don't know where this train of thought is taking me.. but i'm just blue.
ha, so after i typed that, i went to www.biblegateway.com to look up a thanksgiving verse to spur me... haha:
Philippians 4:6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
so maybe that's why i'm feeling BLUE because i've been anxious and not laying up anxious things to God. for the past two weeks, i've been working on it but to be truly happy in God despite physical surroundings and mental challenges but it has been REALLY difficult.
on the other hand. i liked this weekend of freedom and friendships.
Friday
- took the 2:30/3:00pm bus with Queenie and talked for a bit with Keith (Perry's cousin) about faith and other issues which i hope was helpful for him as well as myself
Saturday
- cleaned my room in the morning by clearing out my childhood bookshelf; something i wanted to do for a long time! i found books i read before i learned how to read!
- went to Amanda's house for her birthday and well, it was just good being with people that i haven't seen before and people i haven't seen for a long time
- the bad part of that is that some people i don't know think i'm racist and a liar :(
Sunday
- went to English service for like the 3rd time in my life at NTCBC
- lunch and Jackie's house with softball people (Ambassadors) and had a good talk with Gigi and Joanne
- found out the scope of Kwan's love life... haha
Monday
- went dim sum with Gendi and her WHOLE family which was awesome because well, it's been a while since our families had meals together
so far, that's all i've done this weekend and writing it down is a testimony of what to be thankful for this weekend despite how i feel inside.
4 Comments:
Yep kwan Kwan's scope is quite err interesting.
Yay English service! Embrace ur mother tongue! That's right ur mother tongue is english don't deny it.
Aww poor you! Chin up!
heyy mel...good seeing you on saturday...hopefully you're not feeling so blue soon...Phil 4:6-7 is great for that...=->...anyways, just thought I'd drop by and say hi =->
mel!! MISSSSSSSS U! it was sooo nice seeing ya last sunday! we gotta get together when you come back again! :P
take care m'dear! have fun with the dinners with aids and jackie. i say you should rate one of their meals "barf face" hahaha. :)
lubs jo
haha... thanks for the encouragement guys! :)
to dan: on documents, my mother tongue is english... haha... :) but i can't deny i do understand Chinese unlike someone *ahem*
warren: i could only tell it was you by the happy faces (=-> hahah), i had fun talking to you on saturday, it's been a while
jo: i enjoyed every moment of being at jackie's house! :) "girl talk" and being "anti-cattan" :)
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