first of all, this is a bit late... HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPH CHEUNG... (5th)

today (meaning Friday), is a pretty crappy day for me... i started off by waking up late to visit my kid... i'm supposed to be ON a bus at 10am, i woke up at 10:01am... so who has to get ready extra fast, walk extra fast and catch another bus... yeah... and for all days to be so windy... SOOOO WINDY... to emphasize... then i took the bus back in a rush... and that just didn't make me feel any better... and then i went to the hiv/aids centre to do research for my essay for 2 hours. that was very time consuming...i also didn't nap all day... that made me very grouchy.

but to top it all off, i've been feeling VERY homesick lately. for maybe 2 weeks now... not so much being home, but the fact that everyone goes home and i'm still here in kingston. i doubt i can go home until after exams (DEC 20TH!!!) but maybe there is a hope to go in-between. i think the thing that is worse is that EVERYONE just seemed to go home this week... james, adrian, aaron, queenie, connie, derek, and a few ppl in my cell group... everyone who i'm "closer to"... (not that if you didn't go home, you're not close... i may just be feeling blue) but honestly, i've been WANTING to go home... i just can't. there's too much work to do... and of all weeks, certain people have to go home... i hate this... i have fridays OFF, and i haven't gone home. i SHOULD go home and i won't be able to go home... this may possibly be the last term with fridays off... last year, i was like that and worked all the fridays and didn't go home either... ridiculous.

ANYWAYS, bible study at fellowship kinda cheered me up. KINDA THOUGH. we talked about john 13 - Jesus washing the disciples feet. but the view was different. we always focus on how Jesus taught us to be humble servants... but today, we talked about how much Jesus INSISTED on washing our feet. (v.8b - "Unless I wash you, you have no part with me.") Wow... Felicity also read us this passage from a book regarding John 13, but they took Peter's view and kind of wrote it as thoughts that he had while Jesus was doing all of this... it's kinda summed up like this, "... I'm not worth it, why are you doing this for me? Why is it that you feel that I'm worth it? What have I done to deserve this?" As Felicity read these phrases to me, they really made me think. I am worth it because I am bought with the price of the Lamb. Someone has really been mirroring acts of Jesus in my life... unconditional love. Who am I to deserve it? Yet, the same feelings Peter had, I have. I really feel that God has blessed me by having me experience His love through another human being. How great can that be? (On the side, please pray for two people in my fellowship... one has been attending for four years and still questioning God's presence but he is SOOOOO willing to come and learn... but they just can't get past the "unlogical" part of faith!)

alright, enough updating for today... i'm lonely... i miss you guys.