passion - november 22, 2005

what can i say? i'm floored. not really by the number of people there, but by what God can merely do in one night. how God can really speak to EVERYONE there in one sitting. how God can reveal Himself in a mere 3.5 hours. just look below... (i took it off someone's webpage... sorry!) but it's as though the light is God and we are His people just worshipping Him because that IS what we were doing!


what has God taught me? i would consider myself as someone who has low self-esteem... who has no confidence in the things that i can do. louis giglio talked about the bigness of God and the smallness of us using the beautiful world of His creation and universe. i was floored by images of the universe and how small the Earth is. about how Earth merely looks like a dust particle and WE the people live on the dust particle.... how much smaller are we? maybe a nano-bacteria size. AND YET, GOD LOVES EACH ONE OF US! HE CAME FOR ME... A NANO-BACTERIA. He gives me worth... He gives me meaning. it's something that i'm still trying to comprehend.

the other thing is about revival on campuses across the GTA, Ontario and Canada. it's my fourth year now and i've been involved in CCF since day one when i landed in kingston. and i praise God because i have seen so much change since then. and i know that there is so much more. "God, may you break down our walls so that we see you and you alone. May you take us and use us for Your glory! Thank you!"

other tidbits about Passion:
- the longest bus ride ever. 2:30-6pm to get to toronto... then 11:30pm-3:45am to return to kingston = nearly 7 hours!
- i miss T.O. so much... thanks Emily, Sam, Warren, Abby, Gen, Ken, Eric, etc... soooo good to see you all. i miss you... can't wait until Christmas
- approximately 4,000+ people worshipping... wow!
- i finally know what Charlie Hall, Chris Tomlin and David Crowder look like
- Mike Lau and Kat are famous!
- P.S. who has pics to send me? 

things from the past two weeks.... it's long, but it's truly worth the read.

let's go in reverse chronological order:
1) asian semi
last night was asian semi... yes, that's right. i WENT to asian semi. Judy, one of the nursing housemates, is going back to Toronto for the winter term to do her clinical placement at York Central. so we decided that our whole house would go together.
i didn't really mind going to asian semi for Judy, but what i've been bugged about is how clubbing has somehow become a Christian scene. (don't get me wrong b/c i'm not talking about anyone specific, but just personal convictions.) recently, i had an encounter in a Christian circle and there was pressure to go clubbing.... i was so tempted to yell, "if you want to go clubbing, that's your decision. don't drag someone else who doesn't want to go with you." the Bible has never explicitly said, "don't go clubbing" and i won't dubb it wrong but i just think it's a personal conviction.
anyways, we had Bible Study at fellowship before asian semi. and i got to pray before we ended. half my cell group was going to the semi and so i said something like, "God, I know that many of us have after-fellowship activities to go to. I just pray that whatever it is, that we won't be doing something that compromises our integrity as Christians."
and guess what? the most random-ist thing happened. nearly all my fellowship friends got there around the same time so we all lined up for 45 minutes or so and couldn't get in. we just stood crammed up in some tiny room waiting and waiting and waiting... UNTIL THE POLICE CAME. apparently, there was too much underage drinking and throwing up going on inside that the Queen's Student Constables felt that they needed to get things in control so they weren't letting anymore people in. so that's how my asian semi evening ended. instead, we all went to Denny's to eat. i went to bed thinking, "God, you have such a humour with things."

2) bake sale and Joe Boots
two tuesdays ago, i had lots of work to do but i decided to stop by the bake sale that my fellowship that provoked people to ask the question, "If you could ask God one question, what would it be?" and put their questions on post-its and stick it on a board. the bake sale was to raise money for Joe Boots, the canadian executive director of Ravi Zacharias Ministries, to speak on the topics that people asked about. my personal encounter with this one guy just stuck out at me. lemme tell you all about it in third person.

he came and looked at the board and asked, "what is this about?".
she answered, "we are asking people if you could ask God one question, what would it be?".
H: "which god are you talking about?".
S: "we're from Kingston Chinese Christian Fellowship, so we're Christians."
H: "oh, so the One True God."
then he reads the board, sees something, laughs and leaves.... thus leaving two speechless CCF people at the booth. ten minutes later, he comes back.
H: i realize that i blew you off earlier and that was wrong of me. but i wanted to ask... how do you know God exists?
S: uhhh... well, from creation, faith, Biblical accounts...
H: but you're not answering my question... how do you know God exists?
this goes on for a bit... and then...
H: like for example, i told you there was a flying super monkey... and i believe that that was God... so how would you know that your God really exists?
S: uhhh...
then some guy steps in that i've never seen before and discusses with him about the existence of God in a very philosophical way. and it goes on for like maybe a good 10-15 minutes. in the end, i don't think he had his question answered.

my heart was so burdened after he left. i just had this feeling that i have the good stuff, why couldn't i convince him of it? like this man, a fellow student, was searching for God. the question we asked him stayed with him even though he left our presence and his yearning to have his question answered was enough to bring him back ten minutes later. he had a deep longing for someone, something... hopefully God. but he was searching to see if this God really existed and no one could tell him because it is really only by faith. i don't have the answer. but i pray that you will pray for people like him. joe boot is coming this thursday (nov 17).... please pray that God will bring those who need Him most to come. amen.

so this is what i end up getting from 3 minutes on the roof. i see both ends of the arch of a rainbow (apparently, you could see the whole arch before but i was too late). and there were two rainbows (see picture on the right... if you look really closely, there's two rainbows). and then i turn around and there's a beautiful view of the sun setting. wow... it's made my day. now back to the essay that i haven't worked on all day...

 

kingston rainbow
so i receive an urgent call from james to look out my window and i see the tip of the rainbow (if you can see from the picture below) by the trunk of the tree... and then he says there's TWO. so i run upstairs to the roof to catch a picture.