Friday, March 16, 2007

exhausted beyond exhaustion. march break madness.
oh my goodness, i had a jam packed week since i last posted. the whirlwind of events unfolding in my life is surely a testimony of how busy i can really be... although i have a very little bit of time to breath, i really shouldn't be blogging... haha.

i had my first march break in 4 years. and i wish it was 2 weeks long! but alas, it is not and i will not complain about having a week off because boy, did i need it.

when they call march, "march madness" because of the ncaa basketball tourney, i really think they meant it for all us busy people too. march has just been mad. i had the busiest month of my whole year so far. and getting extensions on papers really means just another reason to procrastinate... but if they weren't extended, i would have just not slept.

(i wrote the part above 3 days ago because i realized, i really didn't have time to blog...)

anyways, i had posted last weekend about my epitome of awkwardness. for those of you who know the story, i will not recount it here on blogspot. but yeah, update on that, i'm WAY better guys. :)

on sunday, i went jogging with adrian and james fong. honestly, i have not jogged since grade 8/9 when i used to run around the block for gym class. anyways, those of you who have been to adrian's house should know that his house is at the end of this winding street that goes uphill. let's just say, running uphill against the wind on the first day of the new daylight savings schedule was not a great thing. by the time i got to the end of the street, i felt like i was done with. let's just say, we ended up walking to cummer (not far from adrian's house) and they decided to run circuits up and down cummer from bayview to like... the end of the killer hill before leslie. oh my word. the boys ended up running it 3 times, while i ended up doing it twice... but i walked most of the way. let's just say, i was sore for like 3 days afterwards.

on monday, i had the privilege of eating dim sum with natalie. it was fun... i hadn't caught up with her for a long time. then at night, i had dinner with an auntie, that was fun. i ended up sleeping over at emily's house with steph and we had lots of fun watching a fob movie and just chatting it up.

tuesday morning, we woke up and made our own pancakes. it was really fun! :)

then i just hung out with steph all afternoon, developing pictures at costco and planning the menu for our psyc crew gourmet dinner party. the menu: vietnamese spring rolls, chicken cordon bleu, stuffed potatoes and apple blossoms. it was really fun to make and the food looked good but i think we're not really the gourmet type. hot pot anyone?

wednesday/thursday: TC 2007, need i say more? well, i wanted to elaborate on God's grace for me those two days. i really enjoyed being a counsellor for this group of young people and just watching them experience God was amazing. to see the fervor that there is in young people to examine their own life and follow the calling God has for them. to see the tears streaming down their faces as they rededicate or step out in faith to answer God's burden for their family, their city or this nation. it reminds me of when i stood up in TC to surrender myself to God. what a pleasant reminder...

friday was just spent writing the paper that was due the day before. i spent all day sitting in front of my computer writing and not doing anything at the same time. after nearly 10 hours of sitting there, i finally completed my 4-page double-spaced paper. i also feel like it was one of the worse papers i have ever written.

saturday was our farewell fiesta for faith. as i mentioned in a previous post, faith is moving to mexico early april so we wanted to throw her a mexican farewell party. it was a lot of fun just seeing people in mexican character but also to celebrate her new life with her. we gave her an early birthday cake too since she won't be back to celebrate with us. we'll miss you faith!



sunday was spent making announcements in all three services at church about VBC at my church this summer. it was good eating lunch with Daniel Fellowship people... my first time ever on a Sunday afternoon. then in the afternoon, i took class 3 in my T.E.A.C.H. course at church. it's really turning out to be a very interesting course. i had a paper due but didn't get it done on time so i spent sunday evening at emily's writing it up. sam had also come back from montreal this weekend and we went to Ten Ren's to get some sam-time in before he headed back for the quebecois. sleptover at emily's again because my parents drove my sister to nyc. and i don't want to be home alone. thank goodness for emily and her mom taking in the refugee.

now, it's monday (well, tuesday morning) and i think it's time for bed. i went back to my placement today and taught a lesson on cars. it was tremendously fun. we also watched a short TSO performance. let's just say, i don't want to be back in school. give me one more week... :)

well, i'm off until a later time.

Sunday, March 11, 2007

epitome of awkwardness.
i went through a rough patch last night. and my friend sent me some "the fray" songs today and so many of them capture my feelings, except that 'the fray' are men and it'd work for me if all the she's were he's.

OVER MY HEAD (CABLE CAR) - The Fray
I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind

Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind

on the other hand, i was at church today and there were songs that really uplifted my soul.

AMAZING GRACE - David Bell, Louie Giglie, Rod Padgett
Amazing grace, how sweet the sound
Amazing love, now flowing down
From hands and feet, That were nailed to the tree
As grace flows down and covers me.

MY JESUS I LOVE THEE - William R. Featherstone, Adoniram J. Gordon
Verse 2:
I love Thee because Thou has first loved me,
And purchased my pardon on Calvary's tree.
I love Thee for wearing the thorns on Thy brow;
If ever I loved thee, my Jesus, 'tis now.

Saturday, March 03, 2007

everyone's leaving me behind...



oh gosh, as i just typed up that title, i felt like i was going to post on the "left behind" series or like those old-school rapture videos with the song, "two were walking down the road, one was left behind". *shudder*

anywho, as emily has heard me rant for the past two weeks, i decided i would write a post since i don't feel like working anymore today and my brain is too tired to function but willing to type up a mindless post.

this is my rant. EVERYONE IS LEAVING ME! i just realized that within the past month, it has been a whirlwind of events unfolding before my eyes. we're all grown up.

i just realized that after graduation, everyone's life just kind of unfolds and you can't stop them. the 06 year has seen so many people move away this year: ericson, gaby, darren, jordan, dan O, janice ... the list just keeps going. now, johnny is moving to Korea too for at least 2 years. *tear*

then, my school friends who have been with me since well, Kindergarten, are also moving on. steph is going to HK and i just found out today that faith is moving to Mexico. oh gosh, i went to school for 18 years with steph and 14 years with faith and now they'll be gone. for who knows how long? MAYBE FOREVER!! *tear tear* this has really been a sad month for me... i think i'm in a bit of denial.

as if that's not all, my sister finally landed a job yesterday. she's moving to new york city! and she starts the last week of this month! i can't take this impact anymore! *tear tear tear*

oh, not to mention that there's an endless number of people who MIGHT be leaving this city for higher places... (i.e. more school). but we'll deal with this one step at a time. take a deep breath, mel. i just need a hug.

T.O. friends... we need to band together. i'm going to be really lonely next year....