i realize that i only blog when i'm alone. it's been a quiet day... though i've had two visitors from upstairs visiting me. i guess there are things that i've wanted to blog about but haven't had the chance to for a while... for those of you who've been clicking here for 3.5 months to read something from november, i hope you'll be more than proud of me that i've posted a NEW blog.

school is out for reading week but here i am still in kingston. it's been sad to say but once again, work has left me here. though i don't regret this weekend, it was so relaxing and restful... James came back from Ottawa and we just spent the weekend watching movies and basically doing nothing. =)

the other thing i'd like to share a bit about is Passion for God and what that means to me. first of all, i'd like to recap that KCCF went to a retreat last weekend (Feb 11-13) and the theme of the retreat was Passion. Right before retreat, I was at a 'nom com meeting' and I had realized then that I was losing a Passion for God because my passion seemed to be devoted to other things... like Passion for being "busy FOR God"... it was as if I had been so busy serving that I had lost the initial passion of serving... which is GOD Himself. So going into Retreat, that's what my mindset was... I was there to find a Passion for God. I realized that firstly, to have a Passion for God, it means that we have to be passionate about what God is passionate about. It's not enough to just love God, it is to love what God loves. It's not that we do those things out of duty, but out of delight. We should enjoy doing things for God. I admit, I was a bit straining from that b/c of being so busy. Sometimes, I was just doing things because I HAD to do them and not because I DELIGHTED in doing them. It reminds me of all the prayer meetings that I go to a week... do I go to them because I DESIRE to go and pray or is it because I feel like I HAVE TO go and pray? Basically, I realized that I need a break... a break from serving so fervently... but the break is to be used to FIND GOD for who He is in my life. I don't know when that will be though but at least I'm at the point where I can admit that I have a problem. =)

That's basically what I wanted to share for now... I'm so thankful that I just had a chance to blog. Loneliness is a good thing... it makes me feel like a computer nerd sitting by the computer all day, but it's a good thing. (I love reflections.. =))